Not that anything went horribly wrong or that anything really bad happened.
No, it was more just the fact that I reacted to things that day with fear or anger. I think it stemmed from the fact that I was feeling frustrated and disappointed in myself with how I'm still not growing in certain areas of my life. Mix in a little PMS and you've got a day based on emotion and reaction. Not a good combo!
And the most annoying part was that I was fully aware of all my feelings, that I was allowing and even choosing to WALLOW in them! Bad. I know it feels easier than combatting them and renewing my mind; but to wallow, is to come to a stand still in your character growth and will lead you backwards in time. And I know this!
And then, finally, it was time for sleep. As I was laying there contemplating how I didn't like how my day had gone or how I had let myself feel, (top it all off with a crying baby until midnight for not-fun unknown reasons) I got a text.
It was from a very dear friend of mine. She simply said she was checking in because I had seemed anxious tonight and she wanted to know if something was wrong. She said that even if I didn't want to talk, her and her hubby were praying.
I don't know if anybody's ever done that for me before. It was like a soothing balm. I felt cared for and immediately knew (was reminded) that I didn't need to feel like I had failed and wasted a whole day. No, because no matter what.. I'm still loved. And tomorrow's a brand new day :)
I'm going to remember this when I notice someone's not acting like themselves and check in as well. That simple act is maybe not so simple after all... So thank you for caring, buddy, and for following through with your feeling to check in. You have no idea how much that means
<3
